Struggling with an Eating Disorder #BellLetsTalk – Team Canada

One of my friends, he was a diver as well.We got to the pool and we were changing
and he just grabbed a little bit of
my skin on my back and I was like,
“Why did you do that?”And he was like, “Well I just wanted
to feel how it was to be fat.”There is a bunch of little stories
like that, that I can tell you.I felt like if I wanted to be able to
dive against the best of the world,not only did I have to
improve my technique,but I also had to improve the
image I was giving to the judgesfrom the moment I stand on that board.The year was very important if I
wanted to qualify for the 2012 Olympics.I didn’t see the results
coming fast enough.And, I ended up eating absolutely
nothing or almost nothing.The easiest way to hide it was 
to eat in front of people.And then after that,
making myself throw up.I got so many good comments from
athletes, from coaches, from judgestelling me how good I
was looking on the board,how confident I looked and how
finally I looked like an athlete.But there was a part of
me who said, “But wait.”“You will see.
I will become even thinner.”And at the London OlympicsI ended up having one of the
best results of my career.I was OK with just surviving and
just being able to perform.And then after, I crashed.I lost control.I’m not the kind of guy who’s going
to say, I need you to help me.But I went to see my coach and I was like,“I really need to talk to
you about something that,”“I’ve been dealing with
for the past two years.”I remember, clearly remember,
that he just hugged meand he said that he would be
there for me no matter what.In less than two days, I got help
from Diving Canada and a psychologist.We needed to find the
reason why it all happened.It was incredibly painful but to me
those painful moments were necessary.

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