Hey everyone its Katy and welcome back to my channel. So I thought I would do just a quick little chitchat update type video not professional at all, I’ve just shoved my camera in a little spot and I’m just chatting to you kind of like vlog-style I guess because there are a few things that I wanted to chat about and update you on. There’s no real way of like introducing the subject, but I’m going to be taking a break from YouTube. Don’t worry though it’s not a permanent thing. I will be coming back to YouTube. I hope at some point but I do need to take a bit of a break with no filming, no uploads, no editing just for me and this is a need, this is not a want. I don’t want to do this, I never want to come off YouTube, give you less content, come out of my routine like I love what I do, but I need to do this for several reasons. The first of those reasons is I am in burnout, big time. I have been running on empty for the last like two or three weeks and I need to give myself a break. I went through World Autism Awareness Week in burnout and I’m so proud of the content that I put up. I’m so glad that you guys enjoyed that content, but it was really really hard, not gonna lie. It was it was hard for me to put out that content I was so unmotivated that entire week and I need to reward myself now by giving myself what my body wants which is just a bit of a break. Unfortunately, when I experience burnout, the first thing that tends to be the thing that I cannot do is film because it’s just like I can’t put a face on, I can’t motivate myself to sit in front of a camera and talk and it’s just especially when I’m talking about like heavy subjects or things that are quite complex or autism related stuff like often when I’m in burnout that’s the last thing that I want to do and that sucks because I really enjoy making content about autism because that’s why I do this channel. So I need to take a break to get back to loving what I’m doing and I’m currently not loving what I’m doing so I need take a break, get back to finding that passion and then when I come back to YouTube hopefully I’ll feel much more creative much more able to jump on board and talk about topics that I’ve been wanting to talk about and to just create really great content. That is in the short-term. If I was just in burnout, I’m sure I’d probably be back in the next like maybe week or two weeks but I have a long-term thing that needs to be addressed as well and this is why my break might be longer than I really want it to be but I need it to be this long and that is because coming up in my future is a change that I will talk about at some point, but I’m not quite ready to talk about it yet. I have been hinting at this for a while none of you have guessed it yet. Some of you have been trying to guess what’s been going on because it has been clear in some situations that something’s happening. None of you have guessed it so feel free to keep guessing if you fancy it’s a very lovely positive amazing thing, and I’m excited but it’s a big change and the way that I have my life structured and I’m living my life at the moment in terms of work and schedule I cannot carry on the way that I am when this change comes. It’s just not gonna work the way I am now and this change is like oil and water they’re just not gonna mix and it’s going to end in disaster. Is this gonna provide really nice ASMR or is this gonna be oh! That was thunder and lightning. (rumble of thunder) (whispering) Did you hear that! Basically I have been living on autopilot for the last four months or so and by that, I mean, I’ve been living the same routine and the same schedule every single day every single week for the last four months or so and although that’s great because like a lot of autistic individuals, I do like structure and routine it keeps me feeling safe and grounded, just allows me to live life in a really great way. I also, I’m not sure if I’m the only one who experiences this if you have ever felt like this let me know in the comment section because it would be really nice to know that I’m not alone in this but I have a really addictive personality which means that as soon as I get into a routine and it stays the same for like a month, two months, three months, or longer I get very addicted to it which is not healthy and I get to the point that coming out of that routine and coming out of that structure is a very difficult thing for me to do and and as healthy as routine and structure sometimes is when it crosses into addiction I need to stop that. I need to get out of that headspace because it’s like two extremes it’s like I can’t live without routine and structure, I can’t be all spontaneous and be like da-da-da-da. That’s not gonna work for me. But at the same time being really really heavily structured also doesn’t work for me because I’m so addictive in my personality that it becomes yeah, just an addiction something that I need something that I can’t fathom living without and it’s not healthy for me, it’s really not. So yes, because of all of these things I need to take a break from YouTube. I don’t know how long this break is gonna be. I’m going to force myself to take as much time as I want I’m not going to be back like next week or a week later, I need to have like at least a month I think, to just get back to feeling healthy and to make sure that my mentality is healthy for this change coming in and then after that I will not really be structuring uploads I don’t think I will be filming as and when I want to. If there’s an event that I’m going to I’ll vlog it and I’ll upload. I don’t think we’re gonna have a set schedule on this channel for a little while and I know that’s probably not the best thing for everybody but at the moment it’s it’s what I need I need to just think if I want to film I’m gonna film. I need to start thinking of it in that way as opposed to I have to film I need to film I’m going to film. I want it to be something that I want to do as opposed to what I need to do. So, yes. Hopefully that all makes sense. I hope you guys are not too annoyed or upset with that. I hope that it’s gonna be something that we can work with. Whilst I’m on my break, I will still be on social media. Instagram is the place that I love talking to you guys at the moment so if you have Instagram go and follow me. I’ll be doing stories, I hope to do like Q&As over on there, live videos. I really want to whilst I’m away keep you guys up to date with things on social media and I feel like that’s going to be the platform that I’m gonna go to the most because I love Instagram. So yeah, follow me over on Instagram it’s linked in the description box if you want to go and follow me, that’s what I’m probably going to be doing most of my talking during this time off, but I hope that you guys will bear with me during this. Thank you so much for your ongoing support, and I just hope to see you really really soon.