Taking a break… | invisible i [CC]

Taking a break… | invisible i [CC]


Hey everyone its Katy and welcome back to my channel. So I thought I would do just a quick little chitchat update type video not professional at all, I’ve just shoved my camera in a little spot and I’m just chatting to you kind of like vlog-style I guess because there are a few things that I wanted to chat about and update you on. There’s no real way of like introducing the subject, but I’m going to be taking a break from YouTube. Don’t worry though it’s not a permanent thing. I will be coming back to YouTube. I hope at some point but I do need to take a bit of a break with no filming, no uploads, no editing just for me and this is a need, this is not a want. I don’t want to do this, I never want to come off YouTube, give you less content, come out of my routine like I love what I do, but I need to do this for several reasons. The first of those reasons is I am in burnout, big time. I have been running on empty for the last like two or three weeks and I need to give myself a break. I went through World Autism Awareness Week in burnout and I’m so proud of the content that I put up. I’m so glad that you guys enjoyed that content, but it was really really hard, not gonna lie. It was it was hard for me to put out that content I was so unmotivated that entire week and I need to reward myself now by giving myself what my body wants which is just a bit of a break. Unfortunately, when I experience burnout, the first thing that tends to be the thing that I cannot do is film because it’s just like I can’t put a face on, I can’t motivate myself to sit in front of a camera and talk and it’s just especially when I’m talking about like heavy subjects or things that are quite complex or autism related stuff like often when I’m in burnout that’s the last thing that I want to do and that sucks because I really enjoy making content about autism because that’s why I do this channel. So I need to take a break to get back to loving what I’m doing and I’m currently not loving what I’m doing so I need take a break, get back to finding that passion and then when I come back to YouTube hopefully I’ll feel much more creative much more able to jump on board and talk about topics that I’ve been wanting to talk about and to just create really great content. That is in the short-term. If I was just in burnout, I’m sure I’d probably be back in the next like maybe week or two weeks but I have a long-term thing that needs to be addressed as well and this is why my break might be longer than I really want it to be but I need it to be this long and that is because coming up in my future is a change that I will talk about at some point, but I’m not quite ready to talk about it yet. I have been hinting at this for a while none of you have guessed it yet. Some of you have been trying to guess what’s been going on because it has been clear in some situations that something’s happening. None of you have guessed it so feel free to keep guessing if you fancy it’s a very lovely positive amazing thing, and I’m excited but it’s a big change and the way that I have my life structured and I’m living my life at the moment in terms of work and schedule I cannot carry on the way that I am when this change comes. It’s just not gonna work the way I am now and this change is like oil and water they’re just not gonna mix and it’s going to end in disaster. Is this gonna provide really nice ASMR or is this gonna be oh! That was thunder and lightning. (rumble of thunder) (whispering) Did you hear that! Basically I have been living on autopilot for the last four months or so and by that, I mean, I’ve been living the same routine and the same schedule every single day every single week for the last four months or so and although that’s great because like a lot of autistic individuals, I do like structure and routine it keeps me feeling safe and grounded, just allows me to live life in a really great way. I also, I’m not sure if I’m the only one who experiences this if you have ever felt like this let me know in the comment section because it would be really nice to know that I’m not alone in this but I have a really addictive personality which means that as soon as I get into a routine and it stays the same for like a month, two months, three months, or longer I get very addicted to it which is not healthy and I get to the point that coming out of that routine and coming out of that structure is a very difficult thing for me to do and and as healthy as routine and structure sometimes is when it crosses into addiction I need to stop that. I need to get out of that headspace because it’s like two extremes it’s like I can’t live without routine and structure, I can’t be all spontaneous and be like da-da-da-da. That’s not gonna work for me. But at the same time being really really heavily structured also doesn’t work for me because I’m so addictive in my personality that it becomes yeah, just an addiction something that I need something that I can’t fathom living without and it’s not healthy for me, it’s really not. So yes, because of all of these things I need to take a break from YouTube. I don’t know how long this break is gonna be. I’m going to force myself to take as much time as I want I’m not going to be back like next week or a week later, I need to have like at least a month I think, to just get back to feeling healthy and to make sure that my mentality is healthy for this change coming in and then after that I will not really be structuring uploads I don’t think I will be filming as and when I want to. If there’s an event that I’m going to I’ll vlog it and I’ll upload. I don’t think we’re gonna have a set schedule on this channel for a little while and I know that’s probably not the best thing for everybody but at the moment it’s it’s what I need I need to just think if I want to film I’m gonna film. I need to start thinking of it in that way as opposed to I have to film I need to film I’m going to film. I want it to be something that I want to do as opposed to what I need to do. So, yes. Hopefully that all makes sense. I hope you guys are not too annoyed or upset with that. I hope that it’s gonna be something that we can work with. Whilst I’m on my break, I will still be on social media. Instagram is the place that I love talking to you guys at the moment so if you have Instagram go and follow me. I’ll be doing stories, I hope to do like Q&As over on there, live videos. I really want to whilst I’m away keep you guys up to date with things on social media and I feel like that’s going to be the platform that I’m gonna go to the most because I love Instagram. So yeah, follow me over on Instagram it’s linked in the description box if you want to go and follow me, that’s what I’m probably going to be doing most of my talking during this time off, but I hope that you guys will bear with me during this. Thank you so much for your ongoing support, and I just hope to see you really really soon.

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  1. Take Care! Health has to come first, especially when your burned out. Look forward to seeing you back soon after your well deserved break

  2. YouTube is not easy, and staying as consistent as you have been its no wonder you're feeling burnout. Thank you for putting yourself through that to bring us good content, you have more than earned your rest and I wish you well during you're break. May it be energizing and return you to you're state of #FidgetyAndFresh – ness 🙂

  3. Take it easy please don't over do things. Take as much time as you need I will be here when you come back. Your health is more important than YouTube. Don't worry about us you need you time. I can understand you addiction personally I too have that. I like everything to stay the same. When it comes to my hobbies I go all in I'm collecting British coins 10p , 50p and £2 pictures coins. I don't like change in my schedule but if you need time off from YouTube then take as much as you want. I'm not going anywhere. Take care of yourself first and foremost. Everything else can wait. please don't wait till burnout before taking care of yourself. ❤❤❤

  4. you have helped me so much with your videos. I am in burnout too and it is really taking a toll on me. Please take care of yourself!
    we will be here when you get back ❤️

  5. Take as long as you need 💛 we’ll be here whenever you want to upload. Please don’t feel pressured.

  6. Take care and take whatever time you need to recover. I've been lurking on the channel for the last months and enjoy your content. I look watching your channel again

  7. I'll be the first to admit that my Tuesday's & Friday's at half 4 won't be the same without you friend. But I also respect what you are doing and know that it's about you and what you need which is far more important. I would rather see you happy doing something you love/want to do instead of feeling you need to do it.

    I've said it before and I'll continue to say until I am blue in the face… Got nothing but respect for you, what you do and what you bring to the community. Now go off, do what you need to do and enjoy a well deserved and needed break 💛

  8. Do what you have to do. Even if it means the rooteen isn’t there. Huge risk I know I’m autistic and I love rooteen to. But you have to take care of yourself first before you can help other people.

  9. I totally understand, take as much time as you need. I am the same with routine, I get addicted to it, in fact I am in a routine that is not healthy at the mo but I can't seem to get out of it.

  10. I’m the same way with routines. The security of the routine becomes so strong, mentally, I feel like I can’t break it. Enjoy your break. Thank you for all you do!

  11. Dear Katie. Love this channel and your positive energy, but I support you as I know how difficult it can be to get through a burnout: Struggle a lot with the same thing at the moment due to sinus infection that has lasted for 9 months now, but I need to hang on bc of work situations. My prayers go to you for health and recovery in your own time <3 God bless you dear!

  12. I hope the break makes you feel much better! Have you heard of springtime depression? This is the time anxiety and depression hits me the hardest and it seems some other people too. I'm currently taking a break from work myself, so you're not alone. Lots of love to you!

  13. Not to sound super gay, but I'm proud of you for admitting that you need a break. You know where I am if you need me. 💕

  14. I'm glad you are taking care of yourself & giving yourself a break. You deserve it. Enjoy it and I hope you'll get lots of energy back. Hope you treat yourself to something nice too. 🙂

  15. I definitely relate to the whole ‘needing routine but not too strictly phenomena; I have a pretty addictive personality too. I hope your break serve you well!! 💖

    My guess is that your family is getting a new puppy!!

  16. We will be back for you when you come back I absolutely love your channel.

    Full time work
    Service dog
    Moving out/house
    Dating
    Changing Job?

  17. Thank you for your update. I appreciate all the content you have made so far and look forward to your return. See you on Instagram!

    I completely understand the addiction to routine. I experience that as well. <3

  18. Have a great break. We'll be here when you get back.
    Since almost every guess I've seen has been about moving out, I know that's not it because you said no one has guessed it. Besides that wouldn't really affect your schedule too much. I think it has to do with a work or school opportunity.

  19. Its verry important to listen to yourself. Take all the time you need.
    I love your channel because you bring positive vibes. You never judge people and try to look at things in a positie way.Thank you for that. The world needs more positive people.
    Good luck and i hope to see you again if you are feeling ready

  20. I'm glad you've decided to take time off instead of letting YouTube take over your life. Be good to yourself!

  21. We love you! Take ALL the time you need! We understand. Even positive changes are difficult. Thank you so much for this lovely update video. You are such a beautiful girl inside and out.

  22. Everyone needs personal time, sometimes. Don't push yourself.

    (Also, 5 days, nearly 300 likes and 0 dislikes. Good job guys.)

  23. I took a break from utube and it has been a year now. I've needed time to rest and grow and it was so good for me. Do what you need.

  24. Oh darn I just found your channel today. But I completely understand about burnout and not being able to film! There are days where I feel I can edit but not have the energy to film.

  25. I think you are moving into your own space. It is a huge step, one that is scary yet very exciting at the same time. I moved out when I was 17, when I went to university overseas (! still can't believe I did that), but as difficult as it was, it was the best life lesson ever.

  26. You do what you need to do and take very good care of yourself. Thank you for everything you have taught me so far, it's been a wonderful experience of understanding and I have the greatest admiration for your stance as an educator and advocate for ASD.

  27. Brilliant explanation bout addiction and routine behaviour may have to borrow it as was trying to explain it to someone today.

  28. you do what you need to do! you have a huge archive at this point, and while I miss your new videos, there are plenty I haven’t watched and plenty for people new to the community

  29. Just found your channel….. dang

    I'm always late, I'll be late for my own funeral 🙂 Well, see when you get back….

  30. Have you used any CBD? Be interesting to hear your opinions on that when you get back it may have some benefits for you.

  31. Its lovely to see you taking some time out for yourself. Have a good break, we'll be here when you get back. 🧡

  32. I love your work, I have learnt so much.
    Thank you. You need to take care of yourself!
    Do what you need to do and only come back when you know you are ready and then only do what you feel you can do!
    I would say that most people here will miss your show but we care about you more! 🙂

  33. It’s hard when your in burn out, I have chronic pain and it can be hard to keep going
    All the support

  34. Ye I know what you mean about the addictive routine thing. I ate shreddies (cereal) everyday for a week then I ate them for a whole year. I’m autistic I have cerebral palsy, I have spd and dyslexia as well

  35. Hope you come back soon. I'm glad for you to get a rest. But I enjoy your videos. They are helping me as well as many others. You deserve the break though. Take care of you. It's important:)

  36. i miss u and I came back to hear your voice again (I get attached to people really badly so sorry) enjoy ur break and btw I love ur channel

  37. I can relate to everything you say! Take care of yourself. I’ve been binge watching dozens of your videos and it helped me rediscover myself and found new things about myself, even though you haven’t uploaded in a while, so that’s okay.
    You’re an eye opener and I’m looking forward to more of your videos in the near future!

  38. 🙏🏻 please be a book!!!! need more literature that i can relate to, cause im running out! will miss you but happy for you doing you!

  39. You told us to guess, so having that invitation .. my best guess is .. Jury Duty. You've been selected to be a Juror in a lengthy trial proceeding and they have mentioned it could take about a month. That's my guess.

  40. Hi Katy i am 53 but i would be honored to have a girlfriend like you just like to say that you are a very beautiful lady keep up your video really interesting seing how you cope with day to day life

  41. Yeah being a YouTuber must be alot of work tbh . Funnily enough I hate routines and I have Autism . I have an obsessive personality but not addictive .

  42. Are you having a baby?! Congratulations if so! This sounds just like me when I got pregnant. There is no structure or routine for a little while because babies run on their own schedule but after a little bit your kiddo will run on structure and routine and you will do very right by them in that!

  43. No need to apologise for informality or taking a break.

    Damn, it sounds like your big "change" that will interfere with work is a hint at gender transition, but I don't get that vibe from you. Maybe you're getting a face tattoo. 🙂

  44. I’m glad you’re taking your break but I was just thinking about your videos so I wanted to pop in here and say I miss your videos! I hope your enjoying yourself 🙂

  45. I am honestly exactly the same, its nice to hear someone else say it. I have such an addictive personality and if I get into a routine I often end up 'stuck' in it and changing it causes me huge amounts of anxiety and I end up having lots of meltdowns. I am at the stage now that I end up breaking habits too quickly because I am scared I'll become dependant on them and unable to change them lol. Its a great contradiction, can't deal with too much structure yet without it I just kinda fall apart ahhaha.

    Anyway hope you get a chance to relax and centre yourself 🙂 have a nice break 😀

  46. Idk whether to come out of the autistic closet or not, the few people I told already treated me different and can see it in actions and faces 😏

  47. I just found you a few weeks ago, and you’ve already been a massive help on my journey so far. I can’t wait for you to come back! Your videos are so freaking informative. You are so awesome and I hope you are getting so so so much rest and relaxation! 💚💜

  48. Your advice and reflections are amazing, however you MUST look after yourself first and come back only when you're ready. Recouperate, restoring your energy until you feel ready again to do what you love to do. Meanwhile, do the things that make you feel happy and rest too.

  49. So glad you are listening to your body and resting for a bit now, it's the only way to be ok. So important.. take care of yourself, look forward to whenever you are back :))

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